Pre-Surgery

This post was originally published on Corrina’s Caringbridge site:
https://www.caringbridge.org/visit/corrina

Hi all – Thank you so much for your kind words and thoughts. I definitely do not have the energy to respond to each of you individually as I would really like to do (my right arm & hand are moving pretty slow) so please know that I’ve read each of your messages many times and I can clearly feel your love and support. Thank you. ✨✨

Outside of a lot of resting, reading and checking in here, I’ve been prepping my body and mind for tomorrow. My restorative teacher, Cheri, has a guided meditation that she shared with me - Preparing for Surgery. The perfect gift for an imperfect time. I know I have the mindfulness tools to keep me feeling calm and safe (most of the time), but that MRI Tuesday night let me know that I‘m really going to have to work them now. It’s rare that I’ve felt anxiety like that... just for the final 5 minutes though which I then had to repeat. 😣 So listening to Cheri’s soothing voice is definitely helping me to ease my nerves and find peace with this process.

And the trust I feel in my doctor is huge. His kindness and capability are palpable to everyone. Before being discharged on Wednesday evening he came in and chatted with David and me for about 20 minutes, which since the nurses were all saying how busy and in demand he is, felt like much longer. We didn’t talk about medical procedures or things I need to prepare for - just a getting to know each other chat. He inquired about my teaching, talked about reading Autobiography of a Yogi (where he learned that David was a devotee of Yogananda way back when in LA), then we learned that Farrokh Bulsara aka Freddy Mercury is from his home village in India and how it was they ended up with the same last name, he shared his very interesting path to becoming a doctor in the US, and an enlightening conversation he had on an airplane with a Buddhist monk.

And through it all how meeting different people can completely change the trajectory of your life. I got a bit freaked out the other night when one of the doctors gave me a little more info than I was ready for, but my overall trust in Dr. Bulsara allowed me to calm down knowing that I’m in very good hands.

I am truly grateful for my very full and loving network of support. I am honestly surprised and touched by how far that net is cast. Your messages, both private and here on CB, mean so so much to me. I know you'll all be there in spirit with me tomorrow and that is a great comfort. xx